moonlit_destiny's Xanga

Monday, February 21, 2005

Mon, 21 Feb 2005 15:51:18 GMT

as i have said. the tracey on pertz's chatterbox is not me. it doesnt sound like me. u guys shud know that. the "wtf"'s ARE me. BUT. starting from the "wtf" that goes "i can be like that" it isnt me. i posted again as "wtf again". but message i said was that i wud stop posting on the chatterbox. and i did. so any future "wtf", "wtf again", or "tracey". it isnt me aiite? that is all. i will not be posting anymore on that chatterbox. anything that is pointed to be "me" is not. it is all fake. thanks for ur time.

Sunday, February 20, 2005

Sun, 20 Feb 2005 18:57:34 GMT

HAHAHAHAHA. I SAW A SQUIRREL ON MY NEIGHBOR'S ROOF THIS MORNING!!!! =D ::chase::

2 days.

anyways..i hope it doesnt rain. i needa go out and exercise or i'm gonna ruin my eyes staring at the comp/tv. oh yeah..i need to clean my room..cuz the landlord's coming tomorrow or something to check up the house..doh. i have such a big mess to fix up..poop..x__x

haha i finished my art hw already. =D for once. now i just gotta finish stupid chinese and andrew jackson poster.

heehee. i love icons. xP

oh yeah. i find out that my house has a trapdoor. O__O it like leads under the house into some sorta basement. and we have an attic too. double O____O i never knew that wow lol

pacsun lol. ISH SOO KYOOOT!!

Saturday, February 19, 2005

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 23:54:09 GMT

3 days...supposedly. i miss my baby so much right now.

too much has been happenin. i need my best friends..a lot..right now..

on a lighter note.

no chinese school for two weeks. how awesome is that.

Saturday, February 19, 2005

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 19:18:09 GMT

why on my vacation. why. u guys should know i'm not like that. sure, i can be mean and hella criticizing, but i dont come off at ppl like that. i have nothing against pertz and jay being together. i mean, i'm with steven now. it's all over. i dont get why ppl have to bring up old issues. i dont even post on her chatterbox okay? now i'm just gonna try to forget about this whole bundle of crap. hopefully u guys do the same.

that really hurt. what u said about me. i didnt think u were that mean either. but i guess in anger, our true selves come out. what we really think. and now i know. and i'm not sure how to react. maybe i wont.

Friday, February 18, 2005

Fri, 18 Feb 2005 23:40:47 GMT

i hate chris.

5 dayssssssssss....x___x

aaahhhh i'm like hooked on project runway now. xP i think it's a rerun that i'm watching tho. cuz the finale is like next wednesday. what disturbs me is austin whatever wears like..lipgloss. >< and that wendy person really pisses me off lol

and... for the guys if they ever wanna use it tho i doubt it. xP

RACHEL MCADAMS PLAYED ALLIE IN THE NOTEBOOK?! xPP wow i'm slow. but yeah i just saw allie's face [ havent seen the movie ] and thot it looked familiar. and then i remembered mean girls. wow that's like a total change in character. like..mean to sweet and stuff. lol anyways

you may be trying to get me jealous. i wont say it's not working. grow up. u dont deserve my friendship. u dont deserve anything i have left to give. just deal with it. the reason this all ended was becuz a friendship wasnt cherished; some things went unheeded. please just go on enjoying ur life ur way and dont try to ruin mine.

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 23:01:34 GMT

mahaha. we didnt lose at basketball. it was actually kinda fun. =] i like this new team wayy better. it's like..briteel, me, brian, chris, janet, and julianna. we won!! it was like..4-0. xP now i dun think i suck THAT much. lol. but yeah it sucks how if ur a sub u have to go run a lap. so glad i wasnt a sub. hopefully i wun be tomorrow either. or i'm gonna be so freakin tired and hot

i think i'm gonna fail the math test tomorrow. same goes for the pe test.

ooooooomg. murray put me under "school random" wtf is that?! i asked him and he's like "oh just whatever doesn't fit into all the other categories." -_______________- good luck to me on finding stuff to write about.

my art hw is making me seriously dizzy and hypnotzied. @___@

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survey time. how do u make those lil boxes? cuz then if u dont wanna read the survey u dont have to scroll all the way down thru a bunch of crap. and it looks cool

Bold the ones that apply

1. I cannot draw. <--anime/cartoon stuff
2. I have strange eating habits.
3. I am currently obsessed with maroon 5.
4. I love xanga.
5. I just ate a sandwich.
6. I am from a house.<--huh??
7. I was born in October.
8. I enjoy reading.
9. I am not on anti-depressants, yet.
10. I bite my nails like a lil bitch.
11. I am in love with Johnny Knoxville.
12. I like English class.
13. I've lost/fucked up my cell phone twice.
14. I hope someday I'll find happiness.
15. I'm about 5'6". <--..almost. i think i'm 5'4-5"
16. I like sports.
17. I am quick-witted.
18. I often stare into nothing.
19. I like board games. <--god i hate them with a passion. xP
20. I appreciate gratitude.
21. I can usually sleep even when I'm not tired.
22. I am too lazy.
23. I hate the smell of movie popcorn.
24. I constantly procrastinate.
25. I have never done hardcore drugs before.
26. I have drank alcohol.
27. I wish I had better grades.
28. I love chocolate.
29. Stupid people amuse me.
30. I hate when people judge others without knowing them.
31. I love hot chocolate.
32. I like *some* kids.
33. I hate cabbage.
34. I dress casually.<--most of the time..i think
35. I am judgmental.
36. I don't have a favorite television show.
37. I'm not a senior in high school.
38. I am single.
39. I go to ECR.
40. I like Garlic Bread.
41. I am an optimist.
42. I love winter. <--i want spring and summer to come tho
43. I haven't seen Marilyn Manson in concert.
44. I can be harsh.
45. It annoys me when people disrespect nature.
46. I am a hypocrite, to some degree.
47. I wish I could have voted in the 2004 presidential election.
48. I am trustworthy.
49. I wish I could play guitar or sing.
50. I want to get my hair cut.
51. The silence after a long discussion when you're trying to think of what to say next is terrible.
52. I burn my own cd's. <--i have more bought than burned ones tho xP
53.I am not passive
54. The best thing about a guy is his personality.
55. I often put others before myself.
56. I hate it when I don't understand what the lyrics of a song mean.
57. My mother is a fucking bitch.
58. I am currently smoke-free.<--to some extent
59. I'm half korean and half white.
60. Stupid people really confuse me.
61. I like showers.
62. I love surprises. <--if it's a good surprise that is
63. I'm not fond of confrontation.
64. Sometimes I laugh about absolutely nothing.
65. The known makes me uneasy.
66. I am perfectly comfortable with knowing that I will eventually die.
67. I hate cold showers.
68. I speak just to fill silence.
69. I am afraid of not having control over my future.
70. I wish I could visit New York.
71. I like to keep life exciting.
72. I have run into a tree.
73. I have walked into windows.<--and walls and doors
74. I like looking at and taking pictures.
75. I don't know how to play pool.
76. My favorite sport to watch is baseball.
77. I learn song lyrics quickly.
78. I like candles.
79. I like school sometimes.
80. I am annoyed by fake people.
81. I have studied one language besides English in my life.
82. I don't have a favorite color.
83. I am avoiding homework, that’s why I am doing this.
84. I usually hold doors.
85. I have 1 sister.
86. I don't like when people brag.
87. I had a bad camping experience.
88. I want to find real love.<--found it. i think
89. I like people with a really good sense of humor.
90. I like taking my time, yet I'm impatient with others.
91. I was just on the phone.
92. I like color coordinating my clothes.
93. My hair is brown.
94. I have never dyed my hair.
95. I reminisce to myself a lot.
96. I am fond of Dave Matthews Band.
97. I don't know who Saul Williams is.
98. I am not a needy person. <--depends on what
99. My bedroom is always messy.
100. I don't like some fancy jewelry.

dammit. i had like 2 surveys but i accidentally selected all and bolded. xP oh well. i g2g draw now..and play piano till my fingers break. xP cya later

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 00:52:53 GMT

i will upload the williams pics......someday. i'm a lil too lazy and tired right now. xP

happy anniversary to ::cough::. ahem...^^

man my team got hella owned in basketball. xD it was me, gali [ she got traded for someone else later on ], peter, alex tom, and chris. and stupid genise sent us to play against andreas, brandon, neekoo, briteel, and nick jowers. xP we lost by 22 points. jesus.

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

Wed, 16 Feb 2005 02:19:28 GMT

bum. bum. bum BUM bum...

AAAAATTTTTTTAAAAACCCCCCKKKKKKKK!!!! xD yeah ariel i get it now lol geraldine showed me. ISH SO KYOOOOOOOOOOT!! HEEHEE!!! :squeals: xP

~*What*~
What makes you smile: sweet things
What makes you cry: when someone says/does something hurtful or i'm frustrated
What makes you laugh: funny things. lol. like my friends. xP
What makes u feel bad inside: when i say something really mean to someone
What makes you feel good inside: when i've accomplished something
What determines what kind of a day you have: i'm usually happy at school, but when i get home it's just like x__x iono why it just happens i think many of u can relate
What makes you mad: when ppl make racist comments or call me something i dont like [ like tracer or trace ] or when they spell my name wrong
What makes you jealous: when the guy i like flirts with another girl or when some1 is thoroughly spoiled when they dont deserve it
What makes you nervous: scary movies, before a speech, or when i'm on a motorcycle in taiwan with my mom
What ruins a good day: something simple can turn it all around..
What makes your confidence plummet: when some1 says something discouraging
What turns you on: dancing, walking in the rain [ sometimes ]
What turns you off: when the guy i like flirts with/compliments another girl
What bores you: math

~*Why*~
Why do you think people smoke: because they think it's cool. it's not. i am hella against smoking. if i see u pick up a cigarette, ur not my friend anymore.
Do you want to change yourself: yeah some parts
Why: cuz they're bad?
Why do you think people flirt: it's fun...
Why are people mean to nerds: cuz we're jealous that we're not as smart as them
Do you like it when people are mean to you? who wud? i mean seriously
Do you like school: heh.

~*Where*~
Where do you go to cry: room. under the covers. head on a pillow. hugging a stuffed animal. OR. sitting in front of my computer with head down. xP
Where do you go to vent: xanga and aim
Where do you go to chill: mall and williams
Where is your favourite resting spot: on the sofa watching tv
Where do you go when you feel like not living: my room or graystone park
Where do you go when you need to clear your mind: my room or outside or talk to friends
Where do you go for help: friends. they're much better than psychiatrists

~*When*~
When do you think about your life the most: all the time.
When do you feel the worst during the day: when i get home or at night
When do you feel the best: lunch? and that isnt always good either. usually it's when i'm with my friends
When do you cry alone: ....when i'm alone?
Whendo you flirt the most: anytime

Bold the ones that apply...italicize the ones that sort of apply

01.] i say 'seriously' alot
02.] i eat alot of chicken
03.] sometimes i forget what i look like without black eyeliner
04.] digital cameras suck
05.] i have a suncom number
06.] i have a t-mobile number
07.] i have a sprint number
08.] i get along really well with my mother
09.] i have a nephew/niece<--dunno if it's 2nd cousin tho
10.] coke is the best soda ever
11.] i can't remember some phone numbers
12.] i eat too much sonic food
13.] green is the new black
14.] i still like pink and black
15.] i love oil pastels<--god i hate them u cant draw with them at ALL
16.] im obsessed with drawing flowers
17.] my boyfriend has an amazing smile<--and laugh
18.] i'm good at math<--AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. ::dies::
19.] i'll be 17 sometime this year
20.] yellowcard sucks
21.] i love twizlers<--eewwwww
22.] mmm beef jerky<--xD hon
23.] good charlotte are a bunch of fags who get paid to wear alot of black
24.] i used to looove avril
25.] i hate cars that go *boom boom* because of their music
26.] i have heard of Early Branch, SC
27.] i smoke a lot of weed
28.] i love to be drunk
29.] my friends are SO fucking awesome
30.] i use soap to shave
31.] i've said dude one too many times
32.] bill cosby is still funny
33.] i hate bush. but i won't hate on him
34.] i can't believe the person i used to be in 9th grade
35.] i should smile more
36.] i still love avril
37.] didn't jay-z retire?
38.] trucker hats are sooo last year
39.] my mom hates my boyfriend<--no direct family knows about us
40.] school is over-rated
41.] i love watching the end of 'extreme makeover: home edition'
42.] the KKK didn't/doesn't kill JUST black people
43.] half full
44.] or half empty
45.] i dont smoke weed
46.] i love the way coconuts and vanilla smell<--well considering that's like my lotion..
47.] dogs are awesome
48.] cats are better
49.] i'm naturally a brunette
50.] but my actions say i'm blonde
51.] i'm actually blonde
52.] i know someone who is/was in Iraq
53.] valentines day is a holiday that hallmark made up
54.] my neck hurts
55.] i crack my knuckles<--used to, but i dont want misshaped fingers or arthritis
56.] i hate it when random people IM me.
57.] i have left the US before
58.] i have been to the other side of the US before
59.] i've lived in more than three states
60.] clinton was the best president that happened to the US
61.] you've got to be kidding me right?
62.] my hair is perfect
63.] actually, i've got really bad split ends<--or did. until i cut it again
64.] dr. pepper is the best soda ever invented
65.] i suffer from middle child syndrome
66.] i'm the baby
67.] all of my siblings are younger than me
68.] my brother is a male slut
69.] my sister are all grown up
70.] i can speak more than one language
71.] i DON'T dance
72.] i really only dance when i'm drunk
73.] other than my dance class
74.] my bf's [boyfriend & best friend] are very supportive<--love u ariel and steven. =]
75.] i'm VERY camera happy
76.] i still say 'totally, like, and as if' alot
77.] i don't have to say a word, and my friends know exactly what im saying<--sometimes
78.] i loathe rap music
79.] i loathe country music
80.] some rap songs are fucking hilarious
81.] i hate spring break
82.] i add 'ness' and 'izzle' to alot of my words
83.] i get grounded for dumb shit<--my parents dont know what grounded means
84.] i hate saps
85.] it makes me feel great to make someone else happy<--not exactly great. maybe just satisfied
86.] for shizzle my nizzle. you want some frizzles with that?
87.] <--- i was born in this year
88.] <--- i was born in this year
89.] i used to love kel. but kel loved orange soda
90.] i missed both degrassi episodes tonight
91.] *the reason* makes me cry
92.] wtf is degrassi?
93.] i graduate this year<--8th grade
94.] i graduate next year
95.] bean beans good for the heart
96.] the more you eat the more you... FART
97.] that was so immature
98.] haha i'm still laughing!
99.] GOSH. this is finally over!

what happened to 100??

u like dat xD

Monday, February 14, 2005

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 23:47:01 GMT

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

today was a good day. =] vewy vewy spesho. ^^ i already gave steven his gift on friday [ picture frame i bought with 2 pictures of us together in it + handmade card which sucked ass but oh well ]. and he gave me a hella cuteass puffy hippo. and also a really pretty card he bought. i love it.

decide which sunglasses look more sexy

isnt the hippo so hella gangsta and pimp??? oh yeah. this is what the hippo looks like originally.

HEEHEEHEEHEEHEE!!!!!!!!!! xP isnt it the cutest thing in the world??????

right now i'm wearing his sweatshirt, his necklace, and i'm hugging his hippo. =D

dun take that the wrong way. perverts.

oh damn that's gotta SUCK

"Love is when you know you are not dreaming, but feel as if you were."

"Do you love me because I'm beautiful, or am I beautiful because you love me?"

"I may not get to see you as often as I like. I may not be able to hold you in my arms all through the night. But deep in my heart I truly know, you're the one that I love, and I can't let you go."

"True love is when you miss him even before he leaves. It's when you could listen to him talk all night and never get tired of hearing his voice. It's when the thought of his name gives you butterflies and you see his smile when you close your eyes."

"When you are alone, just look at the spaces between your fingers. Remember, in those spaces, you can see my fingers locked with yours forever."

"At first I only thought we were friends, but then I realized that I loved him."

i love you.

Monday, February 14, 2005

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 00:59:51 GMT

i'm hella scared. i don't want to lose you.

shit happens. u just gotta deal with it.

and now...for the 2nd long post of the day..full of surveys..well just one. but it's hella freakin long. oh well. nothing better to do. =]

TAKE THE LAST 2 DIGITS OF YOUR BIRTH YEAR, AND LIST THAT MANY FACTS ABOUT YOURSELF

[1991]

1. I love spending quality time with my friends.

2. I love being hugged.

3. I seriously need to clean my room. big time.

4. I miss camp.

5. I've never been to the East Coast.

6. The only states I've been to are Oregon, Nevada, California, and Washington.

7. I like to sleep in. sometimes.

8. I used to like sunrises, but now i like sunsets.

9. I hate it when i get woken up by a phone call.

10. I usually don't talk much on the phone. [ shut up ariel ]

11. I slept for 11 hours today.

12. I went to a private school before, but now a public school.

13. My hands and feet are always cold.

14. I am an Atheist.

15. I've sucked at math since I slacked off in 4th grade.

16. My grammar is getting worse daily.

17. I never know what to do around little kids.

18. My honey's birthday is in 43 days.

19. I'm always tired for some reason.

20. I have a lot of clothes that I absolutely hate.

21. I want to go to New Zealand.

22. I have 4 close friends that I could trust with my life.

23. I wish I could wear shorts or a skirt without being embarrassed.

24. I can't wait till June.

25. I suck at every single sport.

26. I love watching movies.

27. I'm broke.

28. I like antique shops.

29. My ancestors are from China.

30. Some may have been from Taiwan.

31. All of my mom's side is still in Taiwan except for us.

32. All of my dad's side is in Seattle except for Hon and an aunt I've never met.

33. Christmas is my favorite holiday.

34. I hate drama yet I create a lot of it.

35. I hate having to hide so much stuff from my parents.

36. My brother can make me feel very guilty.

37. I want a dog.

38. I hate regular pencils that you have to sharpen.

39. In fact, I prefer pens over pencils.

40. I have enough pens to last me years.

41. My parents are still together. [ sorry peter ]

42. I'm not allowed to have a boyfriend.

43. I ignore that rule.

44. I love twister. [ and i converted Steven into a twister obsessor too ]

45. I am hungry.

46. I wish I could dance better.

47. I wish my dad would stop smoking.

48. My mom makes the best chinese food.

49. I get nasty thoughts. [ xD ]

50. I want to drive.

51. I've been best friends with Ariel since springish of last year.

52. Since then I've had 3 bf's. Yes. I know.

53. I think I am very close to being in love.

54. I can't believe I'm only on 54

55. I am obsessed with Asian tea.

56. I hate ppl who want pity.

57. I like R&B more than Rock.

58. I think Emo is stupid.

59. I know tons of people who are fakers.

60. I can say fuck in front of my mom and she'll be like deaf.

61. I love white chocolate.

62. My friends are always there for me.

63. My best friends are the best thing that have ever happened to me.

64. I never knew Kate Bosworth had one blue and one brown eye.

65. I get distracted easily.

66. I should just give up on naming 91 facts about me.

67. I used to think my parents were old fashioned.

68. I lost my beloved chapstick. The one that actually works.

69. I am still hungry.

70. I'm getting sick of listening to my xanga music.

71. I wish I had a cell phone even though I don't need it.

72. I wish I had an iPod even though I don't know enough songs for it.

73. I have brown eyes.

74. I'm proud to be Asian.

75. I don't need deodorant.

76. I hate perfume.

77. I don't really like cologne either, but sometimes it's nice.

78. I hate makeup even more than I hate perfume.

79. I need to stop using the computer so much.

80. I also need to stop doing so many surveys that no one will read. [ cept for steven. ]

82. I wish I could kill my teachers.

83. I am screwed for CM.

84. I am paranoid about Grudge.

85. My computer is lagging like crazy.

86. I love watermelons, peaches, and that one green melon thing.

87. Oh and canteloupes. which i still think is a melon.

88. I love clam chowder.

89. I like sweet surprises.

90. I am going to eat pasta now.

91. I can't believe I got up to 91.